Posted by Dinah on March 19, 2003, at 3:17:09
In reply to Re: hello sienna and noa » Dinah, posted by Tabitha on March 19, 2003, at 1:55:21
It's definitely not one of those places where they try to squeeze more from you. In fact, I would guess my bosses are concerned for me, hence the "help" that wasn't very helpful. It's a small family sort of place where I've been working for years and years, all but the last two or three rather successfully.
What happened? A retirement of my immediate boss, and a spreading of my work among many bosses. Which leads to two problems. Problem one is that I answer to too many bosses, and since I try to please them all, there is no schedule setting, and I am poor at schedule setting. This is a problem which I address frequently, with limited success, because I keep trying to please the many. Problem two is that I no longer have a boss who is familiar with the work I do, so I no longer get the help that I used to get and have to do more myself, and I have extra responsibility because I don't feel I'm getting the supervision level that I'm comfortable with (because I didn't want to be a boss myself, and want someone in the boss position). It also means that the remaining bosses have no real idea what I do or how I do it or how complex the whole thing really is, and their suggestions and "help" is not all that helpful because it is unbelievably unrealistic. And my efforts to tell them exactly what I do need fall on ears that just can't understand because they've never done the work from the ground up.
And yes, I do try to do a very good job rather than cut corners. That never used to be a problem, and was in fact an asset, but no longer. And my poor OCD brain has trouble coping with that.
They really do try to help, and try to make it easier for me. I have, unfortunately, broken into tears enough at the office that they are concerned. But what I can't get through to them (or get through to myself that I'm just not going to get it and must make accomodations to the reality of things) is that what I need is what my old boss gave me. A liason between myself and the outside world (because the constant calls make me nuts, literally), a structured and realistic schedule, and just the right amount of pressure to keep me on task but not so much that it makes me fall to pieces in an extremely unproductive manner.
As you see, I've got a pretty good grip on the why, but I've got no real concept of how to get it done. I'm not even sure it's possible.
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