Posted by Dinah on March 16, 2003, at 5:29:11
In reply to Re: Sienna, posted by sienna on March 15, 2003, at 21:13:18
I don't think it's unusual to have that dichotomy in feeling in this illness. Perhaps it's a sign that you haven't given in to it completely. And please don't.
All the things you are talking about can be fixed. I doubt it's helpful to yourself to give yourself artificial deadlines as to when they need to be fixed. Although I must confess to doing that sometimes myself. But my therapist always says it isn't helpful. :)
There are answers out there, and you shouldn't give up on trying to find them. That's what I meant about needing to spread hope out a bit. 28 is too young to decide it will never get better. There are still too many possibilities.
Do you have a therapist? I find mine invaluable in uncurling my torturous loop of thinking. And before you give up, there are many more med combinations to try. If you have trouble with med changes, there are ways your pdoc should be able to help you with that.
I know how comforting and seductive it is to consider suicide as a means of escape. A fantasy of escape even. Phil once wrote me a very wise post about just taking that option off the table. I haven't yet been quite able to do that, but I think of the post often.
Remember that to a large extent the hopelessness is a pesky symptom of this pernicious disease. Don't let it beat you.
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