Posted by gabbix2 on March 4, 2003, at 13:45:24
In reply to Hi Sailor, posted by kara lynne on March 4, 2003, at 12:39:14
Isn't that supposed to be "Heyyyy Sailor"
Hi Kara Lynn. Will misery loves company help?
I've been living at my Dad's basically since I ended my last abusive relationship with a substance user. Sometimes I think I stayed (too long) in those kind of relationships because I
had all that life passion and energy also, but I didn't know where to focus it. I just knew in a 'normal' relationship I would be bored.Now I'm freaked. When I'm with my girlfriends which is rare, I see how great it is to be 'woman" and its fine. But mostly I just can't believe how 10 years went by and I was either just getting by because of the depression, or because of the relationships. And now I'm almost scared to look up.
I've lost my anchor. I know I don't like where I live, but I don't know where to go, what to do.
Sometimes when my medication is working ( how sad does that sound ) I get a glimpse of how other people can handle things, that I seem to find overwhelming or heart wrenching. Unfortunately it doesn't seem to last long enough for me to actually act on it.I keep thinking that maybe I should look up some of those guys I thought were really boring and give up. But somehow I know I'd be miserable doing that too. I need security and adventure equally and its absolutely wrenching.
Where do you live do you need a roomate?
(Kidding, sort of)
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