Posted by bozeman on February 7, 2003, at 23:48:09
In reply to Re: talk about my day, posted by lostsailor on February 5, 2003, at 11:30:41
I posit that the reason we have to "decompress" after being with those closest to us, is that they are capable, like no others could be, of rattling us to our core. Because they *know* our core, as much as another *normal* can. And being *known*, risks rejection, since we view ourselves as *not* normal.
Resonate?
I have the same problem. My roommate, who is closer to me than nearly any other living soul, who I talked to four+ times a day until we moved in together, and I did not talk for about a year after we became roommates. It was just too risky, risking rejection. I love her like another part of me, like a sister, and it was too scary to have her that close, while sharing the same living space. Over the phone, forty miles apart, was fine. In the next bedroom was too much to handle. It took us a couple of years to get to where we could be as good of friends, rooming together, as we were living three towns apart.
Tony, you are like the mirror half of my soul, living the other half of my shattered but recovering life. It is as if you know the thoughts I never vocalize even to myself. You are better, and more whole, than you know, or you couldn't elucidate so clearly what I never speak even to myself. Hold on to those moments, as I suspect they are all we take with us after this life.
Thanks for being your deep, thoughtful, mildly neurotic, somewhat sarcastic, dysfunctional, wonderful self.
Another dysfunctional/wonderful/psychotic/too-much-to-handle-but-will-level-out-someday-God-willing Soul.
bozeman
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