Posted by Tabitha on January 3, 2003, at 16:10:46
After 2 weeks of being left to my own devices, I feel human once again. The sound of birds singing fills me with happiness (I'm not kidding). My sleep cycle is moving toward daytime. I've had the energy and motivation to organize the house and do some repairs. I made necessary phone calls to the bank and the water utility. I paid the bills only 2 days late. I'm eating fairly healthy and started a little exercise regimen. I feel like a normal functioning human being.
So I conclude that job stress makes me crazy and increases if not causes my depression. I was thinking the medication was pooping out, but it seems it's just that the stress is overloading my coping ability, even with the medication.
What to do next week I don't know. If only I could handle stress better, but even with all the therapy and self-help books I'm as reactive as ever. Permanent vacation is not an option. Even periodic vacation is difficult. I haven't taken 2 weeks off since I don't remember when. 2 weeks is way better than one week. I wish I had 3 weeks. But... I'm not going to think about it anymore, because I'M ON VACATION.
poster:Tabitha
thread:34458
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