Posted by bookgurl99 on December 28, 2002, at 0:22:05
I was just watching the tv special on inmates who live in Supermax prisons. They are only allowed to leave their room for 1/2 an hour a day for a little exercise and a shower. And I realized I've been limiting myself in such a way, I may as well be in the supermax myself.
Partly due to my need for decent healthcare, I've stayed in a job that is far below my mental capacity and potential. What's more, it doesn't even make me happy.
I also realize that I've sort of worn a groove from work to home to bed. I haven't made enough of an effort to get out, to participate, to create in the world.
I feel so frusrated that I've been living like this. I know most of it is due to self-limiting thoughts. And some of it could be ssri-induced apathy (going to see my doc next week about changing meds). But I'm so annoyed. How could I have wasted my life for so long?
Does anyone else ever have a wake-up call like this?
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