Posted by Dinah on December 22, 2002, at 9:22:03
In reply to is this depression? awful whatever it is, posted by Tabitha on December 22, 2002, at 2:55:01
Tabitha, I only have your descriptions of your work situation. That makes it difficult to tell if your perceptions are distorted by depression or anxiety.
But you know, anxiety isn't all bad. Sometimes it's trying to tell us something. Is it possible that your still small voice has been trying to tell you for some time that your job wasn't good for you? That you're working to go to therapy then spending the therapy time to talk about work stress? That you don't feel good about what you do anymore? That your job was not going to lead you in the direction you want to go in life? I'm just throwing things out here. You might conclude your body is trying to tell you something else.
Is it possiblt that after years of putting these feelings aside as nagging concerns, your body just finally rebelled and is now saying "HEY YOU!!! I'M TRYING TO TALK TO YOU!!!" in the only way it can? It's got your attention, didn't it? So the most important question is whether your perceptions of your job are accurate, or if they may be a bit distorted. Seems like a good therapy session or three.
Based on what you've said here, this just might be your subconscious reminding you that you aren't happy with your work. Don't underestimate job stress. Especially if it accumulates for a while.
You've got some time off. Why don't you try to meditate, center yourself, and decide what you really want from life and if you think your current job has a part in that. A secondary benefit is that meditation and centering are calming, so you will also be better able to enjoy your time off. :)
(All that being said, I've done all that, decided that my body has a legitimate concern over the stressful nature of my job, and decided to continue on in it for other reasons. And my body still shouts at me from time to time.)
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