Posted by Greg A. on November 11, 2002, at 12:51:06
In reply to Re: ~~~I feel comfortably dumb » Greg A., posted by ShelliR on November 10, 2002, at 22:28:58
Thanks Shelli, and sorry that the ECT didn't do it for you either. I've just finished the treatments so the memory loss part is not something I am too seriously alarmed about . . . yet! I had 13 treatments - it was supposed to be 14 but I asked to have the final one cancelled since feeling totally suicidal and on a downward trend did not seem to form a good basis to continue getting zapped!
The only part about the memory loss and confusion that is really causing me problems is to do with my 'daytime soap' that I talked about earlier. I have admitted to myself that I could have said something that could have been perceived as a threat. I have a hard time figuring, even so, why someone who has known me for 15 years would react enough to bother going to the police. So middle of last week I decide to spend an hour at my office, just to see how it goes. I am well behaved and studiously try to avoid even crossing paths with the offended party. I certainly do not speak to her. The next day I get a phone call at home from my boss (who was not in the office the day i stopped by) asking me what my purpose was in being at work and reminding me that there is an open police file on my behaviour. I managed to avoid screaming by biting down on the telephone. What have I done??? I know it will all pass as long as I avoid over reacting . . . but in the meantime - I am already feeling like offing myself for Christ's sake!!! Perhaps we will have a 'police assisted suicide'
Sorry for the long replies but I do appreciate the chance to try to talk things out and air my disappointment with ECT and my fear of spending the rest of my days as a depressed slob.
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