Posted by automated lady on August 29, 2002, at 9:35:44
In reply to eating and body issues and depression, posted by Medusa on August 29, 2002, at 2:07:06
I know my body issues and my depression are inseparable. I don't vomit or starve, though - just binge constantly - and as a result no one believes I actually have an eating disorder. The fact is that my whole life revolves around being addicted to sugar (and not being able to function without it); denying myself happiness, friendship or hope because I don't feel I deserve it, being too fat; and HATING myself for being so fat and ugly (whether I am or not is unimportant). I am obsessed both with my weight and with my face, and I find it hard to go out because there are too many mirrors in public places that I can't stand looking into, but can't stop myself. Even when I am trying to concentrate on other things, thoughts about how fat/ugly I am get in the way. I know my depression will never go away unless this gets sorted out, but I have never found an antidepressant that helped. I attended Overeaters Anonymous meetings for a while, but there aren't any where I'm currently living. I have wasted what should have been the best years of my life obsessing about these things, but have no control over it all. How did you start to recover from your food issues?
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