Posted by mashogr8 on August 7, 2002, at 16:35:59
In reply to Re: Suicide Ideation--definition please - kiddo, posted by Ted on August 7, 2002, at 11:54:40
I believe I am suicide ideating when I hate where, when, how, who and why I am. And when those thoughts or questions never disappear, I start thinking of how wonderful it would be for me to never have to deal with those thoughts again. And, the best way would be for me to imagine not being here is to be dead. At times, the beckoning of that desired relief is overpowering and the planning stage takes form. In my mind, that's when suicide ideation swithces to suicide activity.
Bizarre as it may sound, the ideation phase is really helpful in the long run and if I can talk about it in therapy, I am reminded that the "activity" is too drastic. So keeping the possibiltiy open really allows me to make a conscious effort to at least wait out the next minute or second for that matter.
MA
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