Posted by Gabbi on August 2, 2002, at 22:56:29
In reply to Re: Questions about DX...Gab-on, posted by Roo on August 2, 2002, at 9:37:28
Too Corny huh?
I'm not demanding that you show me the poem, but I have a whole stash of journals that I would be mortified if anyone read... not because they reveal sordid details of my life, but because they have really bad yearbook type "poetry" about my broken hearts. "Dreamer" and I also had a back and forth chat under BLUUEzzz where I mentioned that I'm theoretically a feminist, but still cry like a kid over my last boyfriend cause I felt so safe when he held me. I cringe at admitting that but its true.
I think its impossible to talk about being devastated without sounding like a bloody cliche.
Well not IMPOSSIBLE. I wish I could give this man credit but I don't know who he is, and he's not 'famous' but he said "ever since you left me I've had a taste in my mouth like a mayonnaise flavored soft drink" I loved that, not just because it wasn't a dripping cliche but because I swear I KNOW the taste he was talking about.
Thanks for asking about me, yeah this depression battle just sucks... especially because the longer it lasts the more quickly I cycle in and out, but unfortunately it makes the people who support me less and less patient.
What really chokes me is that I do believe there are other ways to treat it, like accupuncture or other more exotic less noxious therapies (besides the St.Johns wort kava kava....etc) but who can afford it?I'm terrified of slipping into a subsidized housing, slovenly flabby chain smoking (I do that too, when I'm "up") shadow of who I was. I was also a health freak, kick boxer,gym regular.
Oh geez didn't mean to scare you, I'm a rarity most people don't have treatment resistant depressionI've been really bad at actually "answering" any questions in posts lately, I apologize if I went on my own self-obsessed way. I'll read it again to see if I miraculously referred to *anything* you actually asked!
Thank-you so much
for your empathy and humor, it keeps me feeling more like the "Frasier" type neurotic depressive rather than the flabby chain smoking hopeless one.Love Gabbi-Gabbi
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