Posted by Alii on March 27, 2002, at 15:41:14
In reply to An apology of sorts. To all., posted by Dinah on March 27, 2002, at 14:06:25
Dinah,
I have posted but a handful of times over the years I've lurked here and due to where I'm at with my disease I contribute little to this board. However I feel compelled to toss a couple of words at ya.
>>....I'm really not feeling well. Sorry for the mini breakdown....<<
Why the apology?! I've broken down many times over the years, both major and minor meltdowns. It is because I have a disease. Do I willingly accept or like that this disease causes me to have a lack of control over my moods and emotions? Heck no! Yet it is my reality (grumble, grumble, bitch, moan!). I feel shame, embarrassment, despair, you name it each time I breakdown/meltdown. And I won't go into the whole how I persevere spiel now since I am but the voice of a stranger but I would like to say:
I don't know your total history (again due to the severity of my depression I have little ability to read archives at length so I apologize if I am completely off base) but I do know that you contribute to this community. Thank you for doing so.
May I offer one more opinion? Do you have a therapist and/or pdoc right now? If so printing out this thread with the time/date info could help chronicle where you're at and how they could help. Just another idea lobbed out there.
Take care.
--Alii
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