Posted by bonnie_ann on March 24, 2002, at 0:15:27
I truly am annoyed with the happy people/or the ones who aren't who pretend they are-that constantly have to make conversation.
Like the biggest gripe I have - Good Morning How are you today? From the same people every day.
Ok my life hasn't changed drastically from one day to the next and depending on what I'm thinking about at that time usually isn't hearts and flowers etc. It's usually something going on in my life that concerns me.
I never have nothing on my mind - do you all have times in your day when your not thinking about this or that? I guess I get pissed when I have to stop what I'm doing to acknowledge them talking and looking at me, I am busy trying to do my job. I know damn well they don't give a crapt how I am this morning and if I told them the truth - what would their reaction be? for instance if I say "Oh yeah I'm thinking of my handicapped sister who's hot to trot and bound to get herself in trouble on of these days. And I'm truly concerned for her well being" Or business is bad and I'm afraid of being laid off and how I will manage and my father is an as-----. I have this tape that plays in my head, I guess I just try to work it out.(I mostly work independently and only have myself to talk to and I'm very good at it. I know that my problems are not any worse than anyone elses. I don't go out of my way to get in other peoples faces. I go about my business, I'm not out to hurt anyone. Should I care? I don't think it's right that people talk to you just for the sake of talking to you. I just find things about these people annoying- like It's a crime if I'm not smiley and sociable. What if I just don't plain like them- It's so tough to respond - it's usually a grunt or I totally ignore them.
But If they are complaining about someone or something I feel at ease and can talk to them.Are these the symptoms of depression?
I get anxious just thinking about having to say or acknowledge someone that I don't want to, just because they throw out that little phrase," Hi,How are you today?"Can someone give me some advice on how to handle this. I read somewhere "It is better to use the insincere gesture of friendship (fellowship) thant the sincere gesture of hostility.(sovereignty)
Thank You,
Bonnie
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thread:20743
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