Posted by Penny on March 11, 2002, at 16:17:09
In reply to Re: How depression starts » Penny, posted by Zo on March 9, 2002, at 19:08:19
Yeah, I don't keep up with the boards as much as I'd like either. If you want, you can email me at penny1076@yahoo.com
I'm hangin' in. Was very encouraged after seeing my pdoc on Friday, but right now, at this moment, I don't know. Was good yesterday, not so good today. It's just up and down, over and over.
But, I do feel like he's hearing what I'm saying. He does, amazingly enough, listen to me. And I see him again this week, so I'm trying to be really tuned in to how I'm feeling and how my moods are fluctuating. At least I'm not having the negative side effects on my current meds like I was having on Paxil! And my last pdoc just kept raising the dose. ha...
Anyway, thanks for your concern. I'm just taking it day by day right now. My therapist will return from maternity leave in about 5 weeks, and that gives me something to look forward to. I've been going to a substitute, but that isn't helping much - I've only seen her twice, but I'm thinking it's a waste of my time and money b/c I really don't feel like opening up to her and I don't like her style as much as my 'real' therapist. I dunno. I keep thinking that maybe a break from dealing with bad stuff in therapy & trying to focus on the positive might keep me from sinking into another black hole...but we'll see.
Penny
> >My moods are just all over the place. Don't know what to think right now, as I was 'flying high' the past couple of days and now I can feel myself heading downhill AGAIN. That would be the feeling I'm most familiar with.
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> Penny,
> This is interesting, because I rapid-cycled for so many years, I thought that was normal life. No joke--only came out of it, after decades, last fall, with addition of Lamictal. So the memory is fresh in my mind!
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> And I think rapid cycling, like so much else, is rather ignored in Bipolar IIs because we don't go off the flaming end.
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> I don't always keep up with the board--do you need to email me? Are you okay?
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> Zo
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