Posted by ELA on January 27, 2002, at 14:02:37
In reply to Re: clear mind at last... » ELA, posted by Fi on January 27, 2002, at 13:42:44
Hi Fi,
Thanks for your messages, they're always useful to me.
I have been feeling graudally better, even though the dark moods still appear from time to time. I think I will just have to get used to them for a while.
As for the course, that's a tough one. I have been a bit dissatisfied with it for a long time but I think it's more to do with the state of Education in England generally rather than my particular course. I've wanted to teach since I first set foot in a school and I honestly can't see myself doing anything else. Everything I've ever done has centered around kids and teaching them things so really I don't know how to do anything else!
The reason I'm want to get back to college so much is that I love the independence I have when I'm up there. I'm my own boss, no-one questions what I'm doing or why I'm doing it and I can go for a jog at 3am without having to explain myself to anyone! I think this is why the clots thing hit me so hard in the first place. Like I've said before - I suddenly lost control of my life and now I damn well want it back!
Will take it slowly and listen to the docs, for a change! Bottom line is that I do want my life back and I'm not going to let this thing beat me anymore. Thanx for writing, take care.
Emma.
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