Posted by mair on January 2, 2002, at 12:28:08
In reply to Re: I act too normal., posted by MarthaM on January 2, 2002, at 9:14:11
The phenomenon being described here makes me feel like I lead a double life. I've almost never missed a day of work because I was too depressed to go in, but I've had countless days where I really got nothing done, because I couldn't concentrate, or because I spent the better part of the day staring out the window ruminating about suicide. I haven't told many people about my depression and when I have, I've mostly gotten responses that reveal a studied disinterest.
I read about a comment a woman made at a seminar on suicide. She said that her therapist told her that she "presented too well." I have no idea how I "present" to people but I do know that the more depressed I am, the harder I try to mask it and that I have fooled my husband on numerous occasions and my therapist on at least a few.
I think of myself as being a silent sufferer.
Mair
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