Posted by mair on November 29, 2001, at 15:32:45
How can we feel so radically different about ourselves from day to day? For the last few weeks I felt like I was finally starting to get my act together after years of slipping in and out of lesser and greater depressed states. I was almost confident and as euphoric as I get. I felt like I was really in sync with my therapist. For the last couple of days I feel only failure and I get all wrapped up in these suicidal ruminations, and therapy seems like yet another struggle that I can't succeed at. I look around me and see nothing but a husband I can't communicate with, kids whose needs I'm not meeting, friends who don't particularly need me, clients I'm neglecting, and problems I need to address although I can't seem to find the focus to deal with them. All of this makes me feel like I way at least 10 lbs more than I did last week.
Sorry for all the rambling.
Mair
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