Posted by hrtlm on November 21, 2001, at 21:41:16
I haven't smoked it in years, but now it's all I can think about. My cat is dying, my life is total shit, no job, most of my family not talking to each other. I can't pull my stmoach out of my throat. Each day my anxiety level rises, as I continue to think "Well, it certainly can't get any worse." My stomach does flip-flops 24/7 and I'm wearing thin. The depression is bad enough, but this is hell.
I have never purchased marijuana before. The last time I smoked it, I was in high school and there was always someone else who would get it. Do I just drive into downtown Los Angeles, into the bad parts, hoping someone will aproach me? LOL - I seriously don't know what to do. I've lived here 7 months and know no one. I would probably even perform oral sex on somebody I don't know in exchange for the opportunity to buy weed. God, I'm in agony and some pot is my only way out. Weird to think this way after having not smoked it in over 6 years, huh? I guess it's just that every other option is gone. (drinking makes me really sick - migraines)
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