Posted by Kristi on November 3, 2001, at 0:09:15
In reply to Re: Worse than any nightmare!!!!!, posted by wendy b. on November 2, 2001, at 15:28:03
Thanks all..... for responding and understanding how that dream made me feel.
Sar... I certainly hope your right. Maybe it's a little peek into the future????????? One can only hope. I haven't gotten that dream out of my mind since...... I want it..... I want it sooo bad. Guess that's why I dreamt it.
Thanks also for saying I'm strong. I really don't feel it sometimes, so I appreciate that. I just know my life is never going to be the same again..... and that totally sucks. And I can't take any AD's to get out of this little "slump" of mine.... I just want to be physically normal again. Let alone mentally.
I get so angry sometimes... and I don't mean to, it's just that sometimes people(and it's usually the "mean" out for themselves ones) that seem to live such charmed lives.... and have no idea what mental and physical pain is like.
As of right now I've been wearing this sports bra under my uniform. It covers my scar.... but peeks up thru the uniform. We just ordered new ones. Tried one on today... and everything shows. My manager informed me that I can't wear anything underneath or alter it in anyway. I can't see how they don't understand.... I mean, they all know what I've been thru, and all of them "supposedly" feel so bad for me. So I'm told I have to wear the uniform "as is".... meaning showing an unbelievably awful scar. I'm going to have to quit. I won't do that to myself. I'm subconscience as it is. Not only will I be aware of it.... it definately is not something the customers are going to want to look at. I don't know what I'm gonna do. Ugh. I'm sorry to vent so much...... just took two valiums and really should be sleeping. I'm sure I'll regret this post in the morning. But thank you all for your responding and understanding. A wishfull krist. Love to all of you!!!!!
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> > i hope you're okay today, kiddo. i'll let mouse take your left foot while i work on the right one, and then we'll all have hot chocolate and you can tell us who is the superior masseuse.
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> > love,
> > sar
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> Excuse me, I'd like one of Kristi's feet, too. How're we going to do this?
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> Sar (and the others) has the right idea about your dream. It's showing you how strong you are. It's showing you: I know this about myself. That's a very clear message. But I can feel how painful it must have been to wake up, to not find the e-mail... Eerie, how real it seems, doesn't it? I think everyone who wrote back has experienced this hyper-reality thing in dreams. 'Way to go, kiddo. It'll all come out good...
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> love, and take care,
> Wendy
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