Posted by Kristi on October 27, 2001, at 22:22:26
In reply to Re: breakdowns » Kristi, posted by paxvox on October 27, 2001, at 21:25:46
> Wow, Kristi, that's a very sad story, I'm sorry that you had such an experience. However, I'm glad that you are able to talk about it. Did you go through PTSD? My depressive illness was exacerbated by my mom's death from cancer. Although it was not as shocking as an accident, it was, in a way more painful, as I had to watch it play out over several years. 10 years later, and my life has never been the same. Not that I haven't moved on, it's mostly that the event killed off my innocent youth,and allowed a cynical spirit to creep over my mood. Oh well, sorry to butt in.
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> PAXHi sweetie,
Your not butting in. Not at all. Yes, I did go thru ptsd..... I think I still am somewhat. There are so many details to the whole story that I re-live everyday. He actually threw me off the bike(saved my life).... and I watched as he got stuck under the front of the car and dragged into a guardrail.
I'm sorry about your mom. I totally understand the feeling of never being the same again. It's rough..... something that just shouldn't be allowable in life. Yeah right... fat chance.
They say these things make us stronger, altho I haven't figured out how yet.
It's been about 10 years now... and I don't think I'll ever have a "real" relationship again... don't think I'll ever get thru a week without nightmares.....
Reading what I wrote.... do you believe I had some sort of breakdown? I don't talk about it much.... it's easy on here.... no one knows me and they don't have to hear my squeaky voice and see my sobby face. There were also more details to that too, but I just didn't know who I was, what was going on.... etc.
Anyway.... I'm rambling again.... must stop. It's time for my nightly treadmill workout anyway. Hope your doing ok.... and again, your not butting in. Take care, Kristi
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