Posted by susan C on October 25, 2001, at 19:47:55
In reply to Sounds familiar Julie, posted by Greg A. on October 25, 2001, at 15:47:21
> Julie - what a step to 'confide' what your day is like. You really want to make a change, but it's so hard to start. Some people say to replace one addiction with another, but a more positive one. When I quit smoking many years ago, I went for a run every evening when the urge to smoke was really getting to me. Feeling awful when I ran would remind me of why I wanted to quit smoking. Sounds dumb, but it worked for me.
> Julie - you really do sound depressed, in the clinical sense of the word. That's why I say your description is so familiar. During my times of bad depression I was scared to answer the phone, scared that someone would want me to think and have meaningful things to say. I couldn't even read a book. No concentration, and sometimes not even the ability to decide what to read. So lots of TV and lots of drinking. I drank the most when my depression was at its worst.
> I have been through quite a few ADs and I find they get me to the point where I can do something about myself. They are not the cure in themselves, but without them I feel hopeless.
> If you are okay with it, give me a bit of a history of your experience with depression. You said it runs in the family.
> Let's face it, two screwed up minds are likely better than one!
>
> Greg.
Hi JD,Make it three minds, heck, only does it count that I don't drink? Could I be of help anyway? I don't know how many people post here, let alone read this board regularly, but, you have got quite the opportunity here...oops, that is the 'performer' in me coming out I guess...
My day? First, let me see if I can remember it...this week has been different, but an average day, is put up with the noisy hotwater tank, as my hub gets up and gets ready for work (at 4 or 5) then, he usually comes in and wakes me up before he leaves at 7, which is dear, but when I am dead asleep,grrrrrrrrr. Then I get up. sometimes get dressed, check my email and PB, drink breakfast (smoothie) my husband makes for me because sometimes I forget to eat. Then I do something, or nothing, oh, I am really stumped. Oh, my son is usually up and running around getting ready to leave for the bus up to college. Then then it is quiet. It used to be I would take every other day and go to the club and wave my arms and legs around in the pool...but these last months have been so unsteady, I usually, go rest, then get up and do something, like clean the back door with a tooth brush (really) or the window with Qtips, or vacuum one room. I dont read the newspaper...I watch the birds out the window...I try to answer things here...and I try to learn more about what is going on...I figure if I read enough of Cam's posts and the responses, I will see the 25$ words enough times, that some of it might sink in.
Now, if I want to go anywhere there is a transit van that will come to my door to pick me up...I am getting used to the idea that I don't drive, now I have to get used to the idea someone other than my hub would take me where ever I need to go whenever I need to go as long as I am willing to wait an hour to be picked up...
Sometimes, like someone recently said, I watch Jenny Jones, or what's his name, just to be able to say, atleast I am not 16 years old, pregnant, with four kids and on TV!!!
around six, everyone is home, I sometimes have cooked, sometimes not, sometimes around 7 or 8 I am here on Open Babble, then, 8:30 I start my routine for going to bed...By 9:30 or ten I am totally OUT.
Hang in there, Julie,
'Here I come to save the day, Mighty Mouse is on the Way...'
(said and sung in the most general of terms referring to everyone here and your doctor(s) and most importantly yourself)
a silly, susan C
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