Posted by jay on October 4, 2001, at 20:43:15
In reply to Re: Social Support/Therapy while on meds » jay, posted by Dinah on October 4, 2001, at 18:55:36
Dinah:
You certainly don't have to apologize for the way you feel. When you get in that *rut* over and over again, and always switching meds, it can make you feel very tired and demoralized.
If you don't mind me asking, how is life outside of therapy...as in home life; relationships; finances; job..etc?
I am certainly not suggesting there is any simple answer. It's been ten years of searching for me, and counting!
I know antidepressants can antagonize anxiety, and can make you feel "numb", depersonalized. That's why I was curious if you have considered a much lower than normal dose, along with your klonipin and depakote. It appears both of these meds can quell some of the anxiety, insomnia, and 'depersonalization' caused by antidepressants.
Best of all, I think it's great to come back to the board for support, and even just to *rant*. Heck, even just reading through others posts seems a bit helpful.
I hope I don't sound too preachy. Last thing you want is somebody telling you what to do. If you have the energy, keep on posting about *anything*.
The fatigue and anxiety are pretty much equal to torcherous hell, and I think it's even impossible to express it fully in words. I don't think you will find much argument about that from folks on here.Please take care..
Jay
> I am currently taking almost no meds, only a small amount of Depakote and Klonopin to help me sleep, since I've had trouble with early morning wakenings for years. I hate 3-6 am.
> I don't want to romanticize depression or anxiety or anything, but I am taking a med break because I have the feeling that the best parts of who I am come from the same personality characteristics that make me over-anxious and too easily stimulated. I am not saying that anxiety causes me to be a better person, just that as with many people, my best qualities are the flip side of my worst qualities. I can certainly foresee circumstances where I would rush back to my Luvox, which worked well for obsessions, but made me into a slow-witted automaton. Wellbutrin made me frankly suicidal in an agitated way. Remeron put me to sleep for days.
> Right now, I am trying to live through what seems to be cycles of anxiety and depression with the help of a pretty terrific therapist. I can talk to him about the black thoughts that would distress my family (because they love me). That rids the thoughts of their energy and keeps the thoughts in line. It also helps to remember that the moods do pass. We also do some CBT, but I am somewhat resistant to that, I must admit. My therapist has to be pretty subtle to slip it in.
> Sorry to go on so. My thoughts are not at their most organized right now.
> Dinah
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