Posted by geekUK on September 28, 2001, at 19:48:22
you son of a bastard, mother fucker from sodam and gommora, with gonorea and syphalis to boot(,) me up the ass. My soul is a wave, it comes and it laps the shores with its pestilent, black kisses. Right now I could kill, the anger is so pure.
Anyway 2 the point. I have kind of substituted drinking for self harm. Is this a good move (and dont tell the clean as a wistle, candy coted CLEAN, story. It does not apply). I have never stoped haviong the urge to plunge a razor or to put out the fag, in my arm. I just fight it. now I realise that stubbing ciggarettes out on your arm is veiwed as torture by most. so ,most would think that I ? torture ? myself. truth be told I torture more by not doing it.
but do I give in, it passes the time. Is it a step back?
MC
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