Posted by Rach on September 9, 2001, at 11:04:33
In reply to Help feeling down, posted by Lexie on September 9, 2001, at 9:12:33
Hi Lexie,
I don't know what to tell you other than hang in there. I understand á bit of what you're feeling; i'm also at my lowest point ever & feeling like I just want to disappear and leave behind the pain and all the shit that's going on. I want to sleep forever, & have made a pretty good attempt at it this weekend! (slept for 32 hours).
I just want you to know that there is someone out there thinking about you & your son. I really hope things look up for you.
Best wishes for smooth days,
RachaelP.S. I do remember seeing you posting before
> It has been a long time since I have posted. I am not sure if any of you still remember me. I am having a very rough weekend. I have Bipolar 2, my most recent challange has been anorexia, my weight has gotten to 113 at 5'9". I told my therapist I just want to dicentigrate. This weekend, I had a visitor that could only stay 2 days when they went back to another state, the panic attacks started, I feel all alone. I pace the floor. (I lost custody of my son last year) I realize more than ever what it feels like to be alone. I want to die now more than ever. I know I will make it I will alway's do. I remember what my therapist said when I said, my son didn't want anything from me and he said yes he does, he wants his mom to see him graduate college and get married and have kids, he wants a lot from you. He is only 5, they say when my weight reaches double digits it's almost irreversable and anorexia has a 50/50 mortality rate. I love my son so much but I am so tired. Lexie
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