Posted by Dubya on April 8, 2001, at 21:50:16
Hi, I have lately been feeling uninterested and indifferent in things like school and life. I am not the type to get easily bored; this warm weather in Toronto ain't helping me. I am overwhelmed by thinking about the things I can do outside like
golf, tennis, etc. rather than school, etc. I am also getting to the point where (I seem bored) b/c, I am pissing off people, even my dog unintentionally. I feel really guilty as I try so hard not to offend anyone b/c, I would lose any chance of having a friend. I also feel an urge to always apologize or say, 'excuse me, excuse me, please, thank you" all day long, even at inappropriate times. I also have periods where I 'assume' things (perhaps impulsivity?) to be true and therefore act upon those ideas in my mind. As a result, I become preoccupied with these thoughts. So, basically, if I accidentally spilled coffee on a classroom desk, I'd feel guilty+embarrassed for the rest of the week. Not only that, 3yrs later, I'd be able to recall such bad events, which would to me, such events indicate my stupidity. I'd feel guilty forever, almost.
poster:Dubya
thread:5575
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