Posted by vwoolf on October 11, 2013, at 12:21:38
In reply to Re: Psychobabble Reunion » vwoolf, posted by Dinah on October 9, 2013, at 20:22:02
I'm not sure why I stopped at that point. Perhaps it wasn't a single reason but a combination of different things. My life got much busier and fuller at that point, with friends I could open up to about my inner world, and so I had less time and felt less need for Babble. I had come through what my therapist proudly referred to as a very successful therapy and in fact I terminated around that time, and so I suppose it was quite natural that Babble would hold less interest for me. Did it have anything to do with meeting Bob? Possibly, but not because it made him real, although of course it did that. I really enjoyed meeting him and it felt helpful to me to be treated as an equal. However I also felt slightly different from everyone else on Babble, as if I had been singled out and made special, and I remember being reluctant to talk about our meeting. I remember wanting not to talk about the fact that he had come to my house in particular. In part I suppose I was afraid that people would be envious, but another part of me felt ashamed, as if I had done something wrong. The legacy of incest again, you see. Sigh. Meeting Bob was great, but it triggered old feelings.
Do I regret meeting him? Not for a moment. I think he should continue to meet with Babblers whenever he can. I think there is something very healing in this kind of encounter. I remember we talked a lot about Babble and how helpful it had been for me. I actually think it saved my life, and I am very grateful to the babble community and Bob for this.
You are right, my therapy was psychoanalytic. After I terminated I took about six months break and then began again with a Jungian analyst. This analysis, unlike the previous therapy, feels very smooth, and is opening me up creatively in the most extraordinary way. My life for the most part has become rich and complex.
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