Posted by alexandra_k on August 9, 2013, at 22:39:25
In reply to Re: new p-doc, posted by alexandra_k on August 9, 2013, at 22:12:02
sigh.
and it isn't that bad anymore... but... something snapped for me. and now i struggle a great deal. i feel... as soon as i get on campus i project AND JUST F*CK*NG BACK RIGHT OFF AND LEAVE ME THE F*CK ALONE as best i possibly can... i'm just closed. not interested in interaction.
the issue is that the buses come / go from there. i need to walk through half the campus... i need to wait with the students / staff there for the bus. so i get them telling the bus driver to turn the music up and their whole smiling and laughing thing...
and i keep my head down as best i can... and listen to conversations about how 'some people think they are too cool' etc etc etc... and realize that (people often tell me that) i look a lot younger than my actual age. and the fact that i'm dressed kinda like a hobo is IMPORTANT to these people... in ways that aren't so much when you have the capacity to pick up on other cues like... that a person might be thinking (it is this thing that some people do) or reading or actually assess what they have to say on its merits.
i just... it makes me feel so f*ck*ng mad... that they get to call this institution a university and these program degrees and these students get degrees. and it is b*llsh*t is all. these students at the very least need to be taught to follow instructions and allow other people to do stuff that is important. i mean... holy crap. i just... despair.
one of the lecturers... i remember her going on about how they tried to get the medical students across the bridge to come over and interact more with the nurses. she wanted to teach medical students *communication skills* - and thought that her students had better ones, you see. she couldn't figure out why it was that the med students weren't keen. how about she starts teaching her students useful things like to pass teh f*ck*ng scalpal when asked. or perhaps it is about getting the medical students to play the stick the label on the cell game in teams of 10. you have got to be kidding me.
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