Posted by alexandra_k on August 9, 2013, at 20:00:24
In reply to Re: Psychobabble Reunion, posted by alexandra_k on August 9, 2013, at 19:45:39
because i don't know how to contain myself sometimes. i don't know what to do. how to change it. how to accept it. how to... not explode. implode. something.
i guess it is my mother's problem. i got it too. except... i think i got it worse than her. intermittently... whereas she got it fairly constant.
and i guess i got my dad's problem sometimes, too. that is why i need total silence / time out. because i am helpless in the face of other people. their expressions their movements their mumbles.. their presence... tries to animate me from the core.
but i'm defiant. i... can't. can't let people do that. and because most people will kill you with their stupid you know. or animate you. then throw you away in disgust.
because they don't really want to animate you.
boundaries.
so. f*ck*ng. draining.
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