Posted by g_g_g_unit on July 5, 2013, at 12:40:10
In reply to Re: can't take it anymore, posted by alexandra_k on July 5, 2013, at 3:43:33
thanks for your suggestions, alexandra_k.
I don't want to seem like a total curmudgeon but I guess I am my own worst enemy in this situation -- I did used to be more active in leaving the house, particularly before my agoraphobia set in, but these days I suppose I just end up thinking, "why bother?" I know if I fight the tremendous amount of anxiety I have to leave the house, at best I might get one or two hours of peace, but then I'll just have to return home and deal with it for the rest of the day anyway. It becomes a bad cycle because I know any respite is very fleeting, and never a permanent solution, and so I become less and less motivated, particularly when my prospects for leaving home altogether or gaining some independence seem so slim at this point.
I am seeing everything through the visor of depression and anxiety right now, though. Maybe if I can get my anxiety under control at some point, and do more while out of the house, it won't seem like such a huge issue anymore.
things are so peaceful after midnight though that I've thought about changing my sleep cycle. not sure how healthy that would be in the longrun though.
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