Posted by moose1 on July 8, 2012, at 16:14:24
In reply to Re: People who've lost faith in therapy » Daisym, posted by Tabitha on March 26, 2011, at 1:47:11
"She could convince me there really was progress, and put all kinds of meaning on it that sounded good that I wouldn't have been able to come up with myself. I wanted that version to be true. Alternately she'd divert it into a discussion of what might be going on in our relationship to make me want to terminate. She'd no doubt find something that bothered me and talking about it would be a relief, so I'd conclude that my doubts were really some reflection of some emotional drama or some relating defect in myself. At some point I decided to try even harder to go along, to put my faith in her (and the process) and conclude she knew better. After all, her story of me making progress was a lot more appealing than my story of it just not working, when I didn't have an alternate plan."
This sounds familiar. This is pretty much how my T responds when I complain that it's not working because I still feel like hell most of the time. I want so badly to believe that there's some great change going on below my level of awareness and that someday soon, I'll start to understand what's going on inside me and that will begin to quell the conflicts and the symptoms. But I think that's all wishful thinking at this point.
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