Posted by Daisym on March 26, 2012, at 23:52:53
In reply to Re: I'm Stuck!!, posted by Twinleaf on March 21, 2012, at 17:59:53
Thanks for all the support and advice and for checking in on me.
I've been down with a cold for a week so missed all my sessions last week. Prior to that my therapist asked me to write him a letter to try and find the words that were stuck. It was helpful. We read it together and it led to some discussion around needing him and not wanting to need him and still having stories of abuse to tell. I want those memories to stop and they do for awhile but when the dreams start again I find it hard to bring it up. I so desperately want to be done with this part of the work.
And one of the things that is front and center has been how the legacy of abuse shows itself in my body image. Like how my default explanation for any kind of rejection is "I'm too fat" because that is an easier (or maybe more familiar) flaw to take in. So this is really core stuff - no wonder I can't talk. It feels like a mine-field.
But I'll keep trying. Glad you are all still here.
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