Posted by Beckett on February 25, 2012, at 9:39:12
In reply to 'Who doesn't want to kill the father?', posted by g_g_g_unit on February 25, 2012, at 7:53:55
It sounds like your household is already broken. What is there to keep intact? It is likely your childhood was worse in that there was a less formed you to deal with your father's aggression. Even if he behaved exactly the same as he did today and did not act out when asked to deal with an essentially irrational child (as children are chaotic and forming). This sometimes does not bring out the best in already taxed, inexperienced parents.
I found the poem you mention. It is my favorite Bukowski
poem. I hope you don't mind me posting it. It speaks volumes and I think it is angry and amazing.
Three Orangesfirst time my father overheard me listening to
this bit of music he asked me,
"what is it?"
"it's called Love For Three Oranges,"
I informed him.
"boy," he said, "that's getting it
cheap."
he meant sex.
listening to it
I always imagined three oranges
sitting there,
you know how orange they can
get,
so mightily orange.
maybe Prokofiev had meant
what my father
thought.
if so, I preferred it the
other way
the most horrible thing
I could think of
was part of me being
what ejaculated out of the
end of his
stupid penis.
I will never forgive him
for that,
his trick that I am stuck
with,
I find no nobility in
parenthood.
I say kill the Father
before he makes more
such as
I.
__________
*call my family/
/tell them I'm lost on the sidewalk
poster:Beckett
thread:1011500
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20120217/msgs/1011504.html