Posted by sleepygirl2 on January 21, 2012, at 20:24:27
My Pdoc doesn't seem to think I express my anger...adaptively perhaps.
The thing is though, I have trouble coming up with things I'm angry about, because I go through things I'm angry about automatically in my head, and just figure I have to accept them, so there is no point complaining about them.
I might actually be quite critical of a whole lot of people if I let myself, but I kinda try not to be like that.So, everytime I tell my Pdoc I'm anxious, he asks me what I'm angry about. Ironically, this pisses me off!
I mean, maybe I should make a freaking list?
Along with that, I'm talking with my t about how anger has been unacceptable for me in interaction with my mother. If I'm angry at her, then I'm a bad person.
She's got this way of hurting me, acting helpless, and then inducing a lot of guilt in me for being angry at her.
It has meant that I have to keep my distance from her, because if I engage with her, I end up angry and feeling guilty about it. She does this thing where she pretends you don't exist, rejects you, attacks you if she's angry at you...
It can be quite hurtful.
For instance, she almost didn't go to my wedding, because I didn't do it her way.
But as far as being angry in general, I feel like I could go on and on about stuff that angers me, but to what end?
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