Posted by floatingbridge on May 2, 2011, at 15:17:17
Hi, I don't post much here, but I know some of you are working your recovery very well and are parents.
I don't know what is wrong with me. I can't make myself get out of bed very often.
I need help, but don't know how or where. I'm scared. My docs don't know
how to treat me medically. My pdoc/
therapist was so frustrated with me that I didn't know how to get help, like having someone come over to help with housework. I want someone to spend
time with my 1st grade son. I'm becoming avoidant again, and the thought of calling and having someone over seems really big. Take him to parks and be cheerful with him. He's rattling around. I meet the bare minimum for him. In an hour, I steel myself to take him to play therapy which he loves.Something is wrong. I feel too challenged. When I think about being a mom, I feel not up to it. I dislike SI, and push it away, but lord, I wish I could just take myself out of the picture because I'm an albatross right now.
Not that anyone here can help. But has anyone here really been unable or feel unable to get out of bed and decently care for a dependent child?
Do I look for a part time nanny? I don't even know what this would be called.
I'm told to meditate, Qi gong, but I don't feel any optimism right now.
Did anyone here weather a period like this? If so, please tell me how.
Thank you.
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I am looking for a therapist for myself. And a school for my son. And an assessment for him. And the way to pay for this. And....
*a rose by any name
poster:floatingbridge
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