Posted by Annabelle Smith on February 13, 2011, at 15:48:37
In reply to Re: Depressed » Annabelle Smith, posted by sigismund on February 11, 2011, at 21:51:52
Sig,
You didn't make that up-- you heard me. I want to be known, to feel real, and to have at least one real connection with another human being. I am so tired of being so lonely and chaotic. I want to be known.
It is so hard in sessions, because I am drowning in words-- I have so much to share in a session that it becomes like scribbling on a blank sheet until the sheet it totally filled with ink-- which becomes another kind of blank. A blankness of chaos.
Sometimes I have felt the most known by my therapist in shared silences-- meaningingful silences, where it is like a merging of beings into one.
But I still need to share these things... they make me nauseous like a poison inside that needs to be vomited out.
poster:Annabelle Smith
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