Posted by Annabelle Smith on January 23, 2011, at 14:52:39
In reply to Re: session » Annabelle Smith, posted by Dinah on January 22, 2011, at 8:39:30
Thanks, Dinah.
No, I don't have medications to take-- we have discussed this briefly, but are going to try to work through it using other means, such as the distress tolerance skills from my DBT workbook.
We have discussed this briefly, but I find my attachment issues with him very embarrassing and difficult to bring up-- this is not his fault; he accepts everything that I say in a compassionate, non-judgemental way. But I still feel such shame. The embarrassment, which I feel so often, is not one of just *blush, blush, but is a feeling in which the very ground of my being feels threatened, where I feel the need to disappear and escape what will feel to be an intolerable destruction.
I have created my own relaxation "tape." My therapist knows about this, indirectly, but again, I am embarrassed to say it openly. But for nearly a year now, when the intense need is there, I listen to his saved voicemail messages on my phone. I don't know how long I am going to have to do this, or God help me, if the phone breaks. But especially in moments of nearly intolerable loneliness and agitation at night, I can listen to his voice and feel soothed enough to fall asleep somewhat peacefully. It helps.
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