Posted by pegasus on August 24, 2010, at 15:20:33
In reply to T #3, posted by pegasus on August 23, 2010, at 15:49:54
Thanks again for your feedback, everyone. It is helpful. It's interesting that people seem to like T#1. I liked him, too, but I keep thinking that his 45 minute sessions and high fees, along with his reserve and formality would drive me nuts. At the moment T#2 feels like the best fit for me, but not a fantastic fit. So, I'm going to keep looking.
The main reason I'm going back to therapy is that I'm finishing up an MA degree this year by finally finishing an internship. It's going to be at a very challenging human service agency, with very traumatized clients. I know I'll have a lot that comes up around that. Tying into my own trauma history, which is related to a lifetime of anxiety and depression, among other problems. I aspire to find a way to do this work while not tipping back into my own habitual pathologies, and while being able to maintain my present, hard won hopeful outlook. I think I'll be able to use all the help I can get with that.
Also, when I last left therapy, I was recovering from a very big surgery and subsequent complications, and had taken a medical leave from my program. When I got better, I just sort of put that whole unpleasant episode behind me, and never dealt with it. But it was very traumatic, and I find it being expressed in some complicated ways now. So I want to revisit it, and find a way to process it better.
In my search, I think I'm mainly looking for someone I really like. I know there are other things to consider, but when I've been through this before, I found that when I met the right person, it wasn't their approach or skills or what not that made it work. It was just that we clicked.
My current plan is to keep looking until I find that click. But only with people who offer a free initial session, because i've spent all the $$ I have for this therapist search already. I have an appointment with T #4 on 9/3, and one with T #5 on 9/7. And there's one more guy that I'm currently trying to get an appointment with. I'll let you know what happens.
Thanks for being interested!
Peg
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