I'm going to choke to death on my tears

Posted by TherapyGirl on August 7, 2010, at 20:58:54

More loss dreams again this week and harder than ever to put them away -- somewhere I don't think about who I've lost and what that means now.
New T is great. She really is. But I don't feel safe with her yet and not terribly connected. I feel untethered.
Old T is who would normally tether me. But it hasn't been 5 weeks yet, so I can't talk to her. And when I do talk to her I don't feel connected to her either. The first person I ever felt connected to and now it's just gone. How does that happen?
And almost no one knows about this loss, so I do whatever small bits of grieving I allow myself in private.
I feel sick to my stomach. I cry, but it doesn't help. I can't imagine that crying more would help either. I can't just sit and cry for days.

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I'm going to choke to death on my tears TherapyGirl 8/7/10
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