Posted by workinprogress on January 17, 2010, at 13:46:21
Hey there all. I've really been struggling with abandonment fear, attachment to my therapist (feeling ok with that), finally realizing I AM needy and trying to be ok with that... So, my therapist suggested that I come in three times a week instead of two. I agreed, but it's hit a big trigger of self-loathing, feeling broken and bad and that something's "wrong with me".
It's so hard for me to not see needy as bad. This has been a struggle for 2.5 years of therapy. In fact, I feel like we finally may have gotten to the core of the onion. And I've been good at actually saying all the questions and misinterpretations of what my T says.. all that stuff I usually am not conscious of or don't share- I've been sharing. So, we've been able to look at a lot. But it's left me feeling pretty small and vulnerable and raw.
I don't know what my question is really... maybe just looking for reassurance or support. I think I thought I was on the upswing, on the way out of therapy (except that I was so attached to my T), but now I feel like I'm just starting.
Sigh...
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