Posted by rnny on December 22, 2009, at 23:38:39
For years I have struggled with being alone on "the holidays". I volunteered one Christmas not too ago at a soup kitchen. I was told I would feel great helping the less fortunate. I didn't feel great. The "less fortunate" were absolutely no different than I was. I feel sad and lost not having what I see happening on TV. People rushing to get places, gifts in their arms, walking into a nice house with people happy to see them. I also look at New Years Eve as me being a failure for not have a date and New Years Day as me being a loser since I am not at some big daytime celebration. I wish I knew for one day what it felt like to be so loved I was popular for the attention of others.
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