Posted by fleeting flutterby on October 12, 2009, at 17:07:23
In reply to Re: c-ptsd, a brand new key » fleeting flutterby, posted by floatingbridge on October 12, 2009, at 16:32:02
> Flutterby,
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> thank you for such a wonderful note!
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> fb:o) You're welcome!
please remember ......those that sincerely seek and have an open heart-- shall find.
some of us originally found our identity within the traumas and that makes it so difficult to let go.... I'm struggling with this presently and I have truly become "unknown". before therapy, I was the hyper-aware one, the one that hid and knew I could only count on myself, the dirty one, the useless one. Now that "me" is disappearing ever so slowly(however- not the dissociating yet, I'm hopeful though *sigh*) but there is no one there yet, ready to take her place. yipes! It's upsetting- not as much as the original traumas however-- the stomach is still in swirls, fit full sleeps and such confusion. Who are we?? our old self is disappearing ....................
I have to trust the process though, as that is all I have left to hope for........
it's so difficult for some of us.....
please hang in there....I hope Judith Herman's book will open your eyes and heart to a path towards inner peace and also healing.
flutterby ps-- in addition to C-PTSD, I've also been dx with major depressive disorder- recurrent.
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