Posted by sunnydays on August 14, 2009, at 23:32:53
I told my T about a major trauma that happened in my past today. All the details. I've been feeling like I needed to tell him. It's really weird for me because I did not feel hardly any strong emotions during it, and haven't afterwards either.
I keep trying to tell myself that this must mean I am 'over it' and that it no longer bothers me. Except that I know that it still bothers me sometimes. I'm trying to figure out what's with the lack of feelings. It must be some sort of dissociation or something. But it bothers me and is the oddest feeling. Just feel totally detached from my life, going through the motions.
I got a little panicky after session and emailed my T because I was afraid he wasn't going to like me anymore after what I told him and I was really wanting to feel connected. He said that I am special. :) I'm holding onto that as proof that he must still like me and that everything must be ok.
sunnydays
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