Posted by InsideOut on July 28, 2009, at 1:22:51
In reply to Re: Which way does madness find its definition?, posted by Sigismund on July 27, 2009, at 19:47:11
Thank you all for your words for thought - nowhere else does there seem to be as many people that think and feel as I do - truly amazing.
If anyone finds the quote by Dostoyevsky please do share!
He changed my world when he entered me when he forced the outside into the inside. The outside touched me but it was when this entered me that I changed enough to shift the world to shift my perception of myself I was to blame for what happened. I translated the objective (I am not to blame) into the subjective (I am to blame).
He broke my heart. My heart pulsates my living I stand in the center of this - I am broken. He separated me into two. The two separated again. And again, until there was nothing left except for a vestige of a child. Trust, taken for granted, will never be again I cannot trust myself with another. My wish for significance elicited no response or recognition from the world. Yearning for this, I found it with him and too many others. Sadness, left weary by repeated revulsion left the stage. Numbness took the leading role. I left with Sadness. Our part was over. I became absent in my own existence. Numbness allows for no other there is no life left to perceive. He disembodied the child, me, through the violation of my body.Much love to all
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