Posted by emmanuel98 on July 11, 2009, at 0:36:36
I spent last week in the hospital because I was so suicidal. I had seen my T and left early because I had nothing to say. He called my husband afterwards because I had left without making another appointment, something I had never done in 4 years.
My husband came home from work and took me to the ER but I did not want to go. I was so filled with rage and despair. The p-doc in the hospital arranged for my T (also a p-doc)to come in and meet with the whole team and figure out what to do. I can't take the medications that work for me because they make me gain massive amounts of weight.
Anyway, as soon as I saw my T, my rage melted away and I just started to cry. When the meeting was over, I took his hand in both my hands to say goodbye, something I've never done -- we never touch. I told him I've been feeling so full of anger, but as soon as I saw him, I felt the anger melt away and he said, well we have always been a good team.
I just love this man so much. In his presence, I feel unconditionally cared for. Over this last week, my husband, sister and the hospital social worker have all been in regular contact with him and they all said to me, he cares so much about you. I feel overwhelmed by this. He is such a kind man. I have never known such kindness in all my life.
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