Posted by deerock on April 23, 2009, at 12:13:01
ive seen my therapist for 15 months, 3x per week. ive found it to be helpful in helping my identify how much i want to please my parents. and at the same time, i find myself still doing the same behaviors and not changing. so after 15 months i told her i need to find someone else to work with. she became slightly defensive and told me that it was in my best interested to stick it out with her and my desire to leave was likely my playing out a memory or repeating some kind of pattern that i have not yet recognized.
i feel trapped by her in some ways. i really feel like i can do better somewhere else or with a male therapist possible. and by planting the idea my leaving is self destructive, i feel really torn.
i called my psychiatrist who knows her. he told me that he knows she is good and he thinks that i might be doing myself a disservice if i leave. now i feel even more trapped.
is this what is supposed to happen in therapy? many of my friends tell me that for 15 months, i have never said much good about my therapy experiences. i often complain to my therapist that what she is doing isnt working and she tells me that im not able to see the good in things.
it feels like i need to leave but her and my psychiatrist tell me to stay. im not sure what to do at this point. thanks for reading this.
poster:deerock
thread:892331
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