Posted by sharon7 on January 28, 2009, at 15:38:51
In reply to Re: I wish I hadn't cancelled my appointments )o: » sharon7, posted by LadyBug on January 28, 2009, at 11:25:42
Thanks for all the kind, encouraging and supportive words. I really appreciate it! Well, obviously I havent' called yet or I would have said something. You know what else I think the problem is and why I am SO SCARED to tell her what I'm feeling? It's because I get mixed signals from her. Sometimes she is so nice and motherly towards me (which of course I love... purr, purr..lol!) but other times she's not. She's allowed to be in an off mood, heck, she can even be mad at me, but as long as I know her feelings haven't changed towards me (or worse, that I did something to cause them to change.) I hate it, but I REALLY need to be reassured (and reassured, and reassured.. you get the idea) that she still likes me, doesn't think I'm hopeless, won't abandon me. She's not real great about correcting me when I (hopefully) say something that's incorrect. Last time I saw her when I was a mess, I mumbled something about "..and then you won't like me anymore... Well, assuming you like me at all. Guess I shouldn't make assumptions like that." I looked up at her for probably the first time in the entire session when I said that, and she laughed (not like outloud, but she smiled.) I guess she didn't realize that she was supposed to say "Of course I like you, Sharon." That's just one example, too. I wonder why she doesn't tell me when I've made a statement that's not true? Unless it is true. So I guess, after a year and a half with her, I'm still VERY insecure in the relationship. I guess that's where coming clean with my feelings probably comes in.
Well, really just wanted to say thanks, but I guess I went off in another direction! (o:
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