Posted by obsidian on December 3, 2008, at 22:35:28
In reply to and I was reading Curt Cobain because I just don't, posted by obsidian on December 3, 2008, at 21:44:43
she is like "get your sh*t together" to everyone
my mother hates judge judy
she can't stand her....thinks she is so incredibly rule
I like judge judy a lot actually...she is incredibly honest
she's like "what the hell are you doing?"
and my artwork says "do whatever you want."
and that is the essence of my neglect...
I could do whatever the hell I wanted to. I wish someone could have told me the truth about how they felt about me. I never knew what my mother was thinking about me. She never really seemed able to connect. I think she was preoccupied...she was always drunk, sitting in the dark. I think she barely held it together psychologically and economically...she was always freaking the hell out about something. I mean I didn't know if she was going to kill me or love me..she was (and continues to be at times) kind of unpredictable. and when she was drinking..holy sh*t, she was one scary f*ck*r
and so was my father though...they were two scary f*ck*rs going at each other
I'm pretty sure those nightmares about monsters fighting each other were just one symptom of the PTSD
I used to scream as loud as I possibly could at them to get them to stop...like "for god's sake! stop it!"
I found this old VHS videotape of "The Amityville Horror, and it has something ridiculous on the cover like "for god's sake! get out!"
like what the hell are you doing?!
that's one of the reasons I don't like scary movies like that...I can't stand watching them do the stupid sh*t they do...it's not funny to me, it's tragic.
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