Posted by Partlycloudy on November 29, 2008, at 11:23:18
Or at least a curve of some kind. I resemble more of an EKG readout. Mornings are by far my best times - I actually wake up feeling OK. Have been trying to take advantage of that and get as much done around the house as I can - and also to not anticipate any kind of downward slide in the afternoon or evening. Mostly I get filled with a kind of dread, not knowing what kind of PartlyCloudy I will devolve into as the day progresses.
Can't get past feeling extraordinarily guilty over "needing" medication for anxiety. (You'd think I'd have come to grips with that by now.) And being back on Prozac, which I can only tolerate every other day because of how jittery it makes me, yet it keeps me from the brink of suicidal depression, is such a fine edge.
I SO look forward to therapy next week. Can all but picture me falling to my knees in gratitude that we'll be able to resume our regular schedule. I am such a creature of habit, I really derive a lot of comfort from having a weekly (or, if I'm doing "well", every other week) appointments.
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