Posted by Partlycloudy on November 4, 2008, at 17:17:13
In reply to PTSD and CSA stuff (hope that triggers obvious), posted by Partlycloudy on November 3, 2008, at 15:26:18
He's slightly increased my Xanax and is switching me from Prozac to Zoloft for the PTSD. He concurred with the neuro's dispensing of Ambien - and last night, I was really grateful for plain old sleep that left me feeling rested.
The medication changes are hopefully short term. I go back for a follow up in 5 weeks.
Tomorrow with my therapist I think I want to talk to her about just what my body aches and pains are trying to tell me - this working and sweating through really does the insult that was done to me so long ago a disservice, and I think that's part of what the back spasms while I've tried to write about my experience are about. I think that I need to be tending to the wounded person that I am at the present, not trying to push past her.
Tonight I am going to take a soaking bath - after I've addressed this headache and backache (again, argh). I think that I really and truly need some babying, and maybe then I won't hurt so much. At least on the physical bits. And I do intend to continue working with the book (I got a couple of chapters down today), but very, very slowly and gently. I think, finally, that it's time that I show the very young person who suffered at the hands of that most evil perpetrator, some charity and compassion. I had thought before of my kitty who had the towel thrown over her while she was so panicked, and now I'm seeing myself as a bird with a broken wing, that requires gentle tending so she doesn't injure herself further.
As always, I treasure all of your thoughts and input. I'm sorry I'm not able to respond individually - just not right now.
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