Posted by sassyfrancesca on October 17, 2008, at 8:26:37
In reply to Re: Invitation to share stories?, posted by lucie lu on October 16, 2008, at 20:01:14
Well, my story (5 years) is probably different from anyone else's (the reason I went to a t); got a divorce after 31 years of abuse, and my church wanted me to reconcile, etc......a friend of mine told me about a t who is also a pastor, and expert in the field of spiritual abuse.
He journeyed with me for 18 months while I fought the spiritually abusive system. i did this to try and prevent the pastor (of disaster) from "counseling" any more women, because 2 of them wanted to commit suicide (because of his "counseling" skills).
In the end, on my birthday, no less....my name was put up on a big screen, followed by the words" Conduct Unbecoming a Child of God."
Something beautiful came out of the ashes, though: www.churchabusepoetrytherapy.com (my faith-based website of anguish, healing, hope and comfort....poured forth from my wounded soul). It's been a phenomenon.
Unfortunately, our souls/spirits connected. I am still with him, and he revealed things to me, that has made it more difficult.
When A t says he is: "Torn, and confused, scared and conflicted." I could write a book at what he has said and done that is provocative.
Logically, I get what is going on, but emotionally, I am not ready to leave him.
One of the best books I ever read: "Sex in the Forbidden Zone" by Peter Rutter (its' about being betrayed by professionals/doctors, pastors, attorneys, teachers, etc....
For me, being alone is the most excruciatingly painful thing I have ever endured (as close to death a one can get)....so for me to get a divorce took all of the courage I had.
In other words, I confronted by biggest (only) fear in life: that of being alone.
I started school last year (age 61), and won a scholarship; it was easy; all I had to do was write about my life.
If anyone wants to know other stuff, etc....I was published; www.psychiatricjournal.com, entitled; The Transcendent Child on Overcoming Verbal and Spiritual Abuse
Love to all, Sassy
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